Is there a second role in our lifetime?
Even computer don't have it
disappointed ): .

I was scolded by mom this morning
coz I've crashed the computer
thanks to Audition , wtf
after clicking it , whole computer restart, scan
over and over
like zillion of time yeah -.-

what was suppose to mean ..
ytd really was lucky
but today was unlucky till ,
idk how to describe ..
yet
I can't do my project by now
ARGH!

Meaningful..

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有烦恼，像个小孩，他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，好多人都会羡慕他们，然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜深人静的时候，他不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴，没有人读的懂他们，想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！所以他们就整天逼自己笑，以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！
他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！
他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。
他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。有人说他们是向日葵，是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。
他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远，不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。但其实不是，他们明白了，心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。
他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。
他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。
他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑 ，请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！ 如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们。。。如果你的身边有这么一个人!请不要伤害他（她）们！因为她们并不坚强。。。。。。。。。。。

21-8-2010

20-8 Amy's birthday
23-8 Jia Ying's birthday

oh gosh , both of them are my closest ones
and just like 2 days to go ..
I sms-ed with Amy almost like a day xD

anyway ,
I admit that my tummy is weak
and I had a stomach ache just now
after filling the oil,
it feel much better :)

in the afternoon ,
I was finding my Form 3's class photo
but the sad news was ..
I can't find it ):
and I saw lots of photos
let's say
from 1 years old till now xD
it changes a lot a lot ,
everythings changes either ..

maybe life's diffrent
some place
no matter :p

-----pic , pic pic !!! *********

14-8-2010

aww ):

that's my dinner tonight,italy foods and eating alone

sad ..

hate those feelings when you are alone

neither eating , playing or else

its pity ok..

exam's approaching ,

but I didnt haven ready for it

and I'm getting lazier and lazier :p

today had missed 4Kekwa's 1st outing

eesh ):

the reason was transportation

how could I ever wish that I'm 17 by now

can have my own licence and driving my own self

without using parent's time

30 more minutes to Super Trio Supreme show ! :D
gonna laugh die me later xD

cya

*kumbi , steely and etc* all are maplesea's items
quitted almost 2 months due to last private server that i played ..

next thrusday's exam day ..
ishh >.<
exam , exam , exam ,
sick with this word when coming to the month
febuary , may , august and october
face it ,
nobody can really refrain the EXAM from the entire life

I'd really want to have another outing
but
exams , tutions , transportation are always the problems
that everyone have =.=''

lazy blog , cya .

*waiting pik kee to upload the photo .. >.< *!

'Dont let appearance fools you '
This is the word that should always to bear it
That's right ,
appearance won't let you understand one's personality
but you'd need some time like 2-3 years to know it

yet you can't compromise it easily ):
well ,
" gonna start copy my science homeworks "
coz had a outing with my primary school's friends
even though just 12 of us ,
but we're still happy :)

If I can choose ,
I'd rather not to know you in the first place ,
coz ... you really don't even know me
yet I was disappointed ):
You can said I'm stupid ,
you may say about blah blah blah
but almost everyone knows that I'm a bird with not locked inside a cage
even a bird needs freedom ok?

现在以人类来说:
每个人都要自由,
看你是否要听或者走自己选的路

'ps chinese still kinda "ROJAK"

hii,
sunday again , tmr monday ):
bored ..

well ,
I do craving for a mei @ someone who can let me tell about something ..
one of them is my biao mei ,
but she's at Sabah
even though we wanna chat, we only can chat together at facebook , sms only
for msn ,
sorry I've not active to online it
and even i online
I'll just close it after 1o minutes

aww ,
I miss my primary school's classmates so much
especially Jia Ying ..
4 years ++ didnt even met once
haish ):